The Separation of Reality

From the perspective of a healer, illness is the result of imbalance. Imbalance is the result of forgetting who you are. Forgetting creates thoughts and actions that lead to an unhealthy lifestyle and eventually illness.

The illness itself is a signal that you are unbalanced because you have forgotten who you are. It is a direct message telling you how you are in imbalance and showing the steps back to the real self and health.

Illness can be understood as a lesson you have given yourself to help you remember who you are. This can only be understood if you accept yourself as existing beyond the physical dimensions of time and space.

The statements can only be felt as loving if they include you as part of the whole, and therefore the whole. They're based on the idea that individuation and wholeness are the same — like a hologram, each part is in fact the whole.

The Newtonian idea that the universe is composed of separated building blocks became outmoded in the early 20th century. We are not separate beings — we are individuated beings. Only old Newtonian thinking leads to concepts of separation.

As children, only a small portion of our internal experience is verified by those around us. This creates a struggle between self-preservation and confirmation from others. We needed a lot of confirmation — we were learning based on outside validation.

We either created secret fantasy worlds, or we rejected much of our unconfirmed inner reality and stored it for later. Another way to say it: we blocked off our experiences — be they images, thoughts, or feelings.

Blocking walls us off from that portion of experience, at least temporarily. We wall ourselves off from ourselves. This is another way of saying we forget who we are. The effect is to disrupt healthy energy flow and eventually cause disease.

Whenever you experience discomfort, you are in some way experiencing the wall you built between the greater integrated you and a part of yourself. That wall holds back a portion of yourself you don't want in your experience of the moment.

With time, the wall grows stronger, and you forget it's a portion of yourself. It begins to appear that what's walled off is something from the outside — some dreaded force the wall holds back. These internal walls are created over eons of soul experiences.

The longer they stand, the more they appear to create safety — but the more they solidify the experience of separation.

"You yourself have fashioned this wall in order to maintain what you considered at the time an inner equilibrium, but that actually maintains an outer disequilibrium — as in a dike, where one level of water is higher than the other. Your wall makes up for that which you feel you are lacking on the inner level."

There is a great power coming toward you, and you think you have less power. So you make a wall to protect yourself — like medieval castle walls being stormed.

The wonderful point: this wall is fashioned of your essence and contains power within it. That power can be transformed and redistributed as a foundation for the power of the inner self. Or it can be seen as a stairway into the inner self where that power already exists.

Bring to memory an unpleasant situation — current or unresolved from the past:

1. Experience what that situation felt like. Picture it, hear the words or sounds.
2. Find the fear it contains. Fear is the feeling of being separated.
3. Begin to perceive a wall of fear. Feel it, taste it, see it, smell it.
4. What is its texture, its color? Light or dark, sharp or hard? What is it made of?
5. Become the wall. What does it think, say, see, feel?
6. What does this portion of your consciousness believe about reality?

Hold a conversation between you the wall and you the person inside. When that's thoroughly done, hold the same conversation between you and what is beyond the wall — and even the wall and that which is beyond.

Continue these conversations until there becomes a flow through that wall. The wall is the bridge of consciousness between what you as the wall say and what you as the inner person say.

You have power within the wall, not power over it. The wall represents the belief in power over — the power of separation, which is one of the greatest maladies of the earth plane at this time.

If you can find this metaphor within and without you — not only on the psychodynamic level but the spiritual and world level — you can use it as a tool for self-exploration and healing. You can use it as a tool for remembering who you are.

From the auric field perspective, the wall is an energy block. In the process of going into the wall, experiencing it, and enlivening it, you are also enlightening the block. The block begins to move and stops disrupting the natural energy flow.

These blocks exist on all levels of the aura and affect each other from layer to layer. A block in one layer — expressed in the reality of that layer (thought, belief, or feeling) — can eventually cause illness in the physical body.

From Chapter 14:

1. What is the cause of illness?
2. What is the nature of your inner wall?
3. Hold a conversation with your wall. What does it say? What does the part of you behind the wall say? What is beyond the wall?
4. What is the wall protecting you against?
5. What is the nature of your power that you have locked away in your wall? How can you release it?